Dark moments

It's been 3 weeks now since I've lost my baby. I've been pregnant for 10 weeks. It wasn't planned but I really wanted to have it. I was so very much looking forward to be a mom. It's almost been like my life began for a second time and I found a real sense in it. Now this sense has been taken away from me and I don't know why I should keep on living. There is one thing, the only thing, that's keeping me here. It's my boyfriend. Without him, I don't think I'd still be alive. I really am trying to keep my mind on other things and not think about it too often. It's working, sometimes. When I'm at school, when I'm with my friends, when I got things to do, then it really is working. But there are a lot of times when I just feel like there is no reason for staying alive. In those dark moments I don't know what I'm doing. That's why I put up this page, cause I think, when I write about how I feel in these moments, may be I can keep myself from doing something stupid. Wish me luck.